What it is: Friends... Again.

I lost a good friend of mine for a while due too "differences" in opinion about this other friend...  Something like that anyways.  We hung out today and it was awesome.  She is like the only person I hang out with out of school so it was great and we went to Kerry and Voyagers.  I missed hanging out with just people.  It was amazing and fun and.......  God, I feel like shit.  I'm leaving next year.  WTF.  I want to leave so badly.  Three things today are trying to convince me not to.  First my knowledge bowl coach tells me how much my team is going to miss me and that we have a good chance at state next year.  Second the director of the city band questions my reasons for going because the school doesn't have an actual band program.  Third I hang out with friends I've had only for this year and they're the closest friends I've ever had that are girls.  It's depressing that I'm losing all of this stuff next year.  Today I'm not even in a good mood to consider whether it's worth it or not but I think it is and if I don't like it I can come back after a semester and wouldn't everybody just be so happy then.  But would I regret my choice for the rest of my life??  WHY IS LIFE SO HARD???